Birthday Thoughts

There's been a lot of introspection in my heart this week. Does my house really need to be clean? Granted, it makes me really happy. But is the expectation that everything will be put back where it goes and that daily my house will be orderly make anyone but me happy? Am I hurting my family with my constant and incessent need to tidy? It is an overpowering urge. I think it is half my controlling nature and half that our living room, dining room and kitchen are all one room. And maybe half that we are at home a lot and use our space a lot and half that everything is just more efficient when tidied. But I am learning to let go a bit. I have a toddler, a 6 year old and a 9 year old. I like books and crafts and I bake and cook from scratch. Things are going to get messy. And that's okay.

We are all still sick. But on the mend. Two of us are mostly better (the boys) and three of us have gnarly coughs (the girls) of which I am the best of. We missed piano today. I am tired. Everything is dry and my face hurts from blowing my nose. We are watching too much TV. But that's okay. 

We did a little bit of school today with all the sick and I made two meals but couldn't make dinner. Well, I did make a fresh loaf of sourdough bread, does that count? It was eaten with gusto by everyone but one child who does not fancy sourdough bread and had a bowl of cereal instead. I guess that's okay? I'm too sick to feel guilt. 

I'm getting excited about my birthday this weekend (it's on Friday but we will celebrate over the weekend when hubby is off work) I'm going to attempt cake if I feel up to testing my blood sugar, but I might just make sourdough chocolate bread. I'm not sure yet. It's my birthday so...it's fine. I do better with sourdough in terms of my diabetes so it might be a safer choice if I don't want to feel tired from high blood sugar. 

My birthday present to myself came! I bought myself this pretty moth sweater I saw on Etsy. I will say I was slightly disappointed. The model in the picture seems to be wearing a XS or S, and I assumed the design would look the same (large) on the XL I bought. The design is the same size as on the S the model is wearing, it wasn't scaled up for the larger size. Thus the moth motief looks a lot smaller on me than I was expecting. But it's still very cosy and very cool looking, so that's great, right? 

Brian is working late tonight and I'm going to read a book. Bye!