Esther hasn't been sleeping well so that means I haven't been sleeping well. Mother of a toddler. I miss sleep. The years of sleep deprivation have been more than the blessed years of sleep since I started having kids. I've been counting. And crying. It is pitiful.
We are crazy. We started trying for another baby? I don't know, the time feels right. Besides not sleeping, my health is better and it's not like we have a lot of time for, uhm, marital relations, so I wonder what will happen. Brian works a lot, and the weekends are full of dishes and house chores and someone always seems to be sick. Not much time for personal husband and wife time. Though I try to make time for it. ITs one of a million things I stress over--I'm behind on this, and dishes. Oh, and laundry. What should take precedent today?
Life is a lovely crazy and sometimes I try to fight it and sometimes I just embrace it. It's two sides of the same person, the calm mom and the one who doesn't know what's for dinner and hides in the closet to have a good cry. Which one are you today? I'm both.
We are trying to do less media this spring and summer. We do a lot of video games and movies here in the Markey household but I think it goes in cycles. And it is how I get a break. I am trying to send them outside and also to go outside myself, but the balance of nature verses my own personal mental health is on delicate scales and no one is perfect. That's what I tell myself when I feel guilty on our second hour of screen time.
I am buying the kids supplies to make clay earrings for Esther. I am perhaps more excited about this than they are. But that is what they asked for. It is a favorite hobby of ours to do together once a week and I need to take pictures sometime!
Becky wants to cut her hair. I am making her wait a week or two to make sure she really wants to. I'm not sure--she hates tangles and that is what is making her want to pull out the scissors, but she loves her long hair and has started wearing bows in her hair and it's just beautiful.
I got down to 10 items for the spring wardrobe!!! I'm sooooo in love with the 10 item wardrobe. I think I will keep doing it forever. It's so easy and everything goes with everything. I feel like I have more clothes than I did before I decluttered three bags!!! I don't know how that is possible but it's been a dream. I saw a picture of my old closet I posted on here 10 years ago and I was shocked at how many clothes I had. It was pre kids I think and bursting to the seams. I was appalled. Poor me, LOL! I remember wondering how anyone could be a minimalist but the thing is I didn't have kids yet and 100 percent of my brain was free to think about my stuff and now I have less than 1 percent to devote to stuff and it has to go. Because I don't have time for that and it doesn't spark any joy anymore.
It has been years since I updated the pictures on this blog and I have plans to do that...soon. Very soon. Yay to a new blog look!
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